I have always lived by one simple guideline: a full to-do list means I am productive and busy. Retired describes my employment status, not how busy I may or may not be. I see a new project, creative endeavor, or something to stimulate my mind, and it's added to my schedule.
Until now.
On a recent morning, I was awakened by a radical thought, at least for me. Maybe I was approaching my time management inefficiently. Maybe my to-do list approach produced poor results. Maybe it was time to change my approach. Maybe I needed to lighten my load and change my focus from quantity to quality.
My days are filled with the basic chores we all have to tend to. The taxes have been filed with the IRS; the quarterly taxes are due next week. The water softener needs a recharge. The "new car" is 12 months old already: time for an oil change. The yard and plants need tending to. All the normal stuff.
I write a new blog post every few days and answer comments as they pop up. Work on a new book proceeds at a glacial pace. Keeping the links and information fresh in the blog resource sections takes time.
To that, I have added playing the guitar, learning to paint, mastering enough French to get by for our upcoming trip, and teaching myself touch-typing (again). I have four different books in various stages of completion; my year-long project to read 52 books that have found their way onto banned lists for various reasons continues.
My point isn't to impress you with my workload; yours is probably every bit as busy. The "ah ha" moment was realizing I am doing all these things, none of them terribly well.
Spending 15-20 minutes playing the guitar every three or four days produce nothing but frustration. Between practice sessions, my fingers lose muscle memory; I make the same mistakes again and again. Maybe by the quarter-hour mark, I can make it through a song or two with something reasonably close to the notes as written.
I may not sit down with some paintbrushes for the better part of a week Then, just like the guitar, I make some of the same mistakes over and over. Instead of practicing and learning about color theory or perspective, I simply attempt to paint a scene I have tackled before. What ends up on the canvas board is certainly much better than it was a year or two ago. But, I am painting the same stuff instead of learning new techniques and skills.
Touch-typing? Seven or eight minutes every three days isn't nearly enough to break a lifetime's habit of typing with two fingers. French? The phrases I learned in high school will have to do.
It became very clear that I was spreading myself way too thin, not giving myself the opportunity to progress in any one area enough to feel a sense of accomplishment. A Jack of all trades but a master of none. I needed to prune back some of the activities that were more like struggling blooms on a plant than a healthy, enjoyable bush.
To that end, gone for now is the guitar, learning French, and online touch typing lessons. While I enjoy making music, until I can dedicate a solid block of practice time several days a week, I am doing more harm than good to that enjoyment. Likewise, with the French and typing. If I can say a few phrases in French, the trip will go well. I have typed one way for more years than I care to count; that has worked OK and will continue to do. Spell checkers save my life.
Blogging is satisfying primarily because of the reaction and interaction with readers. It is work, but something I continue to enjoy. June will mark thirteen years of Satisfying Retirement, and all with just two fingers!
I read for pleasure and learning. There isn't a day that goes by without me spending time with a book or two, or three. Any adjustment will not cut into my time with books.
Painting will require much more of a commitment than I have given if I really want to progress (and I do). Even with some improvement, churning out the same subject matter will not keep me engaged.
Betty makes it clear that I have skipped over almost all of the foundational work that is necessary to show progress in the end product. At least every other day will require some combination of practice, learning, and painting just for fun.
Busy has been my default choice. Quantity over quality has been my guiding light. I'd say it is past time for a change. Let's give the reverse a chance.
Bob, I think a retirement reset is a natural and beneficial occurrence. It reminds me of an update to your asset allocation in finance - a little tweaking puts you back on the path in the direction you want to go. I don't think it's unusual for our interests, energies and priorities to change over time. The trick is to recognize it when it happens (like you did) and make whatever adjustments are necessary to get the most out of life. May I offer you a two finger salute in honor of your typing skills? With all that you've written over the years, typing with just two fingers is very impressive!
ReplyDeleteAfter 6 months of half-commiting to the typing lessons I came to the same conclusion. I have made it this far without touch-typing, why mess up something that works for me.
DeleteI would not be surprised if I pick up the guitar again at some point. The next time I will need to feel a stronger drive than just as a time-filler a few times a week.
Wow and ALOHA BOB from Atlanta. Happy to have located your well written Blog.
DeleteTo think just a few songs ago we where taping your skills to reach our radio audiences to the max. Like you i am proud to be retired. (11/14/2011)
45 years in broadcasting and 5 years of city government. We retired on a Tuesday and left Hawaii 2 days later.
ADJUSTMENT, in a word, now on to all of the good things in life ahead.
Jeff J Coelho (KUMU A/F)
What a pleasant surprise to hear from you, Jeff. We worked well together and made a lasting mark on Hawaii radio. While I don't miss the grind of travel and the Arbitron ratings, I do miss the excitement and people.
DeleteI am part owner of Star 94.3 on Kauai so I am keeping my hands in Hawaii radio. At least it prompts a trip every year.
I have been publishing this blog for almost 13 years. It has been an excellent creative outlet, and I have made several friends through the comments. Over the years I published several books, had a podcast, and was even interviewed in Money Magazine, back when it was around!
I copied (then deleted) your email so you don't get spammed! I will drop you a note soon and we can renew our friendship.
How interesting! I have learned something new here. Hawaii seems like a paradise to me. I have never lived there, but I have visited about a dozen times. I'm curious -- why did you leave? I'm sure there are probably a multitude of reasons.
DeleteThis post definitely resonates with me. I want to do it all! But I totally agree that quality over quantity is the most satisfying. This is still a moving target for me, but I am working on it. Congratulations on 13 years of blogging. Now that I started a blog, I have a new appreciation for that. And you did it with quality...on two fingers!
ReplyDeleteI was working on a mirco-trip but will take a break to respond to your comment! I hope we can revisit Bisbee soon...that is a perfect overnight jaunt.
DeleteI have to remind myself that multi-tasking and a full schedule are just not as fulfilling as they once were. Like the post about the sparkles, we need to pace ourselves to appreciate the little things of life and that can't happen if everything is go-go.
I believe it is most important to allow ourselves the space initially, to determine what it is we want out of retirement as well as having some interests before we "quit the rat race" so that we are not immediately bored or regretful. Charging into a schedule equal to a work schedule I think, is a big disservice.
ReplyDeleteAs for me, I choose an open calendar still 3.5y down the road. I can say yes to last minute opportunities, I can bend to the schedule of friends/family who continue to work and/or volunteer. My interests are fulfilling yet flexible. I can exercise, read, walk, quilt at will, morning/noon/night, it doesn't matter when I fill that need. 2 of my sisters think I'm nuts. The 3rd is a self-declared homebody. I've never been a homebody but I can easily go a week without getting in my car. (Library and several restaurants are walkable distances.)
Along the lines of your experiences, I have a piano that hasn't been played in more 10y other than a ping here/there. For the first time in my life, I'm thinking of divesting myself of it. This really shocked me yesterday. Now I need to seriously contemplate this decision. I always thought I would play until I am an old old girl. Athletic prowess isn't required, right? I may be reaching a crossroads. It has me a bit sad. Maybe I should go get an intermediate book and make myself play 1 hour every day for 10 days and then decide??? As an artist, what would you tell or Betty tell me?
Great conversation as always.
Regarding the piano, if you are even asking yourself the question about getting a practice book then I would say you aren't ready to say goodbye to it just yet. Making a concerted effort for a fixed period of time should make things much clearer about you and piano's future together. You will know.
DeleteFor awhile after retirement i tried not having a to-do list, much less a set schedule. It didn't work. I just felt aimless. Now, I find I am happiest with a list of things that should and could be done (chores, errands, and then fun stuff) but no set time blocks, except the gym which is less crowded around 1:30pm.
I am also free to take something on that day's list and move it to another day or skip it completely. That is how i determined that the typing lessons and guitar were always being shortchanged. It was more honest to just delete them until I feel a pull to give them their proper attention.
Thank you for the encouragement. I thought about what I wrote throughout the day while watching it snow heavy stuff. In the afternoon, my neighbor was out. She is a recently retired gradeschool music teacher with a Masters in Music-piano. I talked to her about my plight. She echoed your statement. I told her based on our discussion, I would go get some intermediate music, practice an hour a day. She said she'd dig for some and asked me what keys. So today, I'll go over and get it from her. She also shared that in recent years, research has been strong on the impact of piano playing on mental health, dementia and evidence is strong to delay/prevent!!!! She also reminded me that if I could no longer ski, walk, quilt that playing could well bring me some joy in old old age.
DeleteMany thanks to you for your insights and to Cheryl!
You have a plan! Once you reach Carnegie Hall be sure to post a video on You Tube.
DeleteSeriously, your friend is right about the long term possibilities.
YEA! I borrowed the intermediate books from Cheryl Friday night. After dinner last night, I played for 30 minutes. SOOOOOO happy for the encouragement from you and from her. I am going to enjoy this journey of skill development. It's not quite as easy as getting back on a horse but it's not taking much study to get back the fingering and note interpretation.
DeleteCheers to the Arts!
Even when I was working I thought that "multi-tasking" was a lie we told ourselves, no one can do it efficiently (eventually my view was supported by studies). As I was getting near the end of my working career everyone was using the term "crazy-busy" when asked how things were going at work. It seemed to be a badge of honour to be crazy-busy all the time, as if you were a more valuable person. Of course everyone was busy but after a while, if you are "crazy-busy" all of the time, you have either inflated what is normal or you are going to burn out and burn out isn't good for the organization or the person. I used to have to instruct people on my team to please take their lunch break rather than eating lunch while working at their desks, it actually increased productivity. It seems many people working have realized that during the pandemic and there seems to be a slowing down, sometimes called "quiet-quitting" but maybe that's just the latest term.
ReplyDeleteI think carrying on that multi-tasking crazy-busy lifestyle into retirement might feel familiar but I doubt it does most of us any good. Slowing down in retirement, that's a concept I think we all should embrace. Do what brings us joy, drop those that don't, and live life for our own satisfaction rather than trying to meet what we think our goals should be or some external goal. Good for you Bob that you are doing that and hopefully you've been doing that all along in your retirement. It seems to me that in retirement we can should march to our own drummer (but don't let him go to sleep) rather than the "crazy-busy" drummer. As with most things in life, it's about balance.
I had really cut back before this latest thinning of the weekly schedule. It wasn't a case of being too busy, but continuing to make half-hearted efforts at a few creative or productive skills.
DeleteSo,by eliminating the guitar and typing for now, I can be more focused on painting, sketching, and my reading project.
Those are very good examples of how we think we are staying busy and productive, but really we are not going deep with anything, and we are not making time to relax and do nothing. I have discovered that those fallow times are as necessary as getting a good sleep at night. Like you, I have overbooked myself several times only to reach a point of release and reset. Great post.
ReplyDeleteIt is so easy to think non-busy time is bad. We have years of being taught this in the working world; it is a hard mindset to eliminate.
DeleteYou're so right -- busy is not the same as productive. I've been focusing more time and energy on my senior learning group, because I find it -- well, satisfying -- and less time on blogging (I cut back to once a week), reading and other pursuits. But I'm also finally beginning to admit to myself that as we get older we ... just ... slow ... down.
ReplyDeleteThe slowing down is natural, but it seems many of us fight back by staying artifically busy, which eventually catches up with us.
DeleteRight after I retired I hit the ground running as I painted 40 hrs per week, illustrated a book for an author, did lucrative commissions, and was super ambitious. I remember telling my son that I was stressed. He looked at me with shock and said, "Dad how could you be stressed, you're retired? I guarantee you that if I were retired I wouldn't be stressed." That really jerked the slack out of me. I then lightened my load by spending more time with family and friends, cut back my studio hours to 20, stopped accepting commissions, and just relaxed and did nothing. I agree with Mr. Davidson's comment that balance is key. Fortunately, because I retired quite early I had ample time to make mistakes, experiment and make corrections. In other words, retirement gives us the freedom to modulate how busy we want to be for optimal enjoyment.
ReplyDeleteModulate how busy we are is a good way to express our opportunities. Another early retiree, I commited all the regular mistakes until I found the right balance.
DeleteNow, it is time to "modulate" again so there is time to focus on what is most pleasurable at this time in my life.
To have the freedom to do so is priceless.